When I thought things would turn out for the worse, they didn’t!
For starters, I got into the university I wanted, first choice which was unbelievable and completly unreal and I am having the best time of my entire life in this university so far. Everyone is so welcoming and so nice, I cant even believe it. I never had this kind of treatement back at school, I even tried out praxe which back in the old days was a straight no answer it actually stuck to me for a while. Everything is different, I’m different! Meeting new people changed me, I don’t feel as restricted as I was. I actually found friends right on the first day!
Also, here I am, wanting the whole world to know, that I am truly in love this time, and not just another one of those platonic crushes I used to misinterpret. I’ve never felt this way for someone for two long years. You see, the most amazing human being, just a few minutes ago was giving me permission to abuse of his state of mind to drench out all of the truth he had within himself. Ofcourse I think this is unbelievably crazy but at the same time, he trusts me enough to allow me to. But I won’t do it and I can’t do it because after losing all my faith in men, I trust him, he’s so unique! He has the purest personality, clear as water and it’s so precious to me.
When we talk, I feel like we are the lost wondering souls that were once bound before the curse of Zeus. I think I’ve found my anchor my lighthouse in the middle of the sea and I have no intention of letting him go. We are still learning and discovering ourselves in a new light we are still so new at this because with him, I feel like I’m back to my early teen years where the thought of a first kiss with someone simply terrified me, actually, the thought of us holding hands, terrifies me. Because I feel like I’m back to my purest, most inocent form, because i cherish him so so much. So I came to the conclusion that I did forget what it felt like to feel this way for someone and I’m so happy that I found it again with him.
Whenever we talk I forget everything, my anxiety, my stress, my problems and all of the heartbreaks I had in the past. He somehow erased my biggest insecurity of all. We could be talking for 16hrs straight but I don’t give two damns about it anymore. He’s the most kind, sweetest person I’ve ever had the pleasure of knowing.
I actually believe he’s my Prince Charming, my missing puzzle piece and I love you. I swear I fucking do.
it takes 26 muscles to smile and 62 to frown and thats why my face is fucking ripped and it will kick your ass
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